This blog is about the trials and travails of a mid-thirties queer grrrl living on top of a mountain. Her skin is covered with tattoos that are like mile markers for all the places she has been.... She is vegetarian and smart and goofy and she owns a yoga studio in Str8 College. She admits openly to singing whenever she feels like it, and encourages others to do so... she dances in her bedroom when there is nowhere else to go~ and she encourages others to do so. She laughs. She cries. She never breaks.
Hey everyone, been a long time since I posted here... I have been in grad school, decided to get my master's... you nah mean... yeah, so anyway... life in the student/business owner/MILF lane is keeping me bizzy as HELL but I still would love to meet a woman...
I miss feeling a woman's lips, hands, mouth, face... I miss kissing her neck, biting her shoulder, trailing my fingers down her back, grasping her hair by the roots when we kiss, tasting her sweat, hearing her moan...
"I want somebody who is not afraid of me, or anyone else; in other words, I want someone who is not afraid of herself".... to quote Ani DiFranco.... "I want somebody who will hold my interest, hold it and never let it fall..."
Alright~ loLa's latest rant: Goddess, people, help me out, here!! I really need a martini and some semi-intelligent, semi-inebriated, flirtatious conversation with an attractive woman who is neither 'shy' nor 'curious'. I'm not interested in going on dates where I'm the only one with anything to say, nor am I interested in being anyone's science experiment. Is everyone out there conflicted and closeted? what is up with that?
So, I went to my tattoo shop a few days ago to get my chest plate worked on. I always have hella fun hanging out with the guy who does my work, and I've known him for 16 years now... so anyway, I was telling him about how I miss having a gf, and he was saying the same thing.... we were lamenting how we both want essentially the same thing in a woman... Now~ he's a straight, attractive man and I'm a bi woman~ you all can tell me whether or not I'm attractive~ I can use the feedback... but neither of us are getting any serious play... was the topic of the discussion... and I gotta wonder how it is that two groovie individuals such as he and myself are not able, each of us, to find the respective woman of our dreams?
I did a lot of art work this weekend, I drew a sketch of myself.... and I was, as I often am in my sketches~ screaming~ with a big, huge, wide open mouth. I usually laugh with a wide open mouth in person... but I seem to scream only in pictures drawn in black and white and shades of grey. As I reflected on my artwork in my final moments of meditation, I thought about how there is a poem somewhere in that.... and art got up again like a viscious little kitty and bit me. Hope y'all are well. Lulu
Okay, so the latest little trip that my mind flys on is this: the LGBT community is hierarchical~ we bisexuals come AFTER the L's and the G's. I wish that State College had a group that was designated Bisexual. It would be nice to have a social group where people could meet and enjoy a social atmosphere where bisexuality is the accepted norm. If anyone is interested in beginning to do work to form that kind of a group, hit me up. I was thinking about a once a month social event. And what's up with the way that all you people who are reading my fabulous blog don't want to post anything in reply? Does my blog smell funny or something? Peace out, y'all!
I've lived in this area for 15 years, moved here from Philly. The city was dirty and ugly in the 80's and I was too poor to do anything fun except go to the Art Museum on free days. I love the beauty of the land here, I love the clean air.... But why are there no other artistic, bisexual women who are older than 28? Where have all the sexy, eccentric, non-conflicted, funny ladies gone? I have met some nice women~ some even seem pretty fabulous~ that would be great to know better but they live 4 hours from me... I'm a business owner with two children so driving long distances to be with my woman is difficult....
I think I may feel less alone on an Icelandic tundra... meditation is great for making me feel in touch with all that is, but it doesn't help me feel the touch or the caring of a special woman. Somebody needs to give me some advice~ what's a woman to do?
The only women out here seem to be into hunting or seem to want to look like men. I'm not into women who look like men, I want a woman who enjoys womanly qualities as well as enjoys expressing her 'tomboi' side... I don't want a chick that looks like my high school janitor. On the other hand, I want someone who is smart and has a quirky sense of humor... Do you think I am asking too much?
